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I want to make you happy, but I've fallen, I'm sorry
I thought my wings could hold me up, with angels not demons...
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Created on 2005-06-09 16:14:14 (#7380016), last updated 2009-11-10
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Basic Info| Name: | Tricia |
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BioCheck out:
http://www.fictionpress.com/~aviendha
http://www.xanga.com/TriciaDillard
http://www.youtube.com/user/BeautyFromPain
I support "To Write Love On Her Arms".
I'm 22. A natural blonde who is missing her brunette days.
I'm the mother of the most beautiful, amazing little girl in the world; Lorelai Alexis. Seeing her smile and hearing her soft attempts at talking can make any day seem better.
I love stars.
I talk really fast, and really quietly.
It drives me crazy when people get away with awful things, but I love to break rules.
I'm horrible at telling jokes and stories, because I get sidetracked so easily.
I've always wanted to fly.
I like collecting books - faster than I can actually read them. I love editing videos. Anime is another of my many loves.
I want to learn Japanese, French, and a few other languages. I would love to visit to Italy, Greece, Japan, Wales, England, France, and many other countries.
I'm a loner, but I love the few close friends I have with all my heart.
I'm a Christian and so glad to be going to church again!
I work full-time at Farm Bureau Insurance as an office assistant - I absolutely LOVE my job. Even on days when people are infuriating, there are the rare few who make it all worth it.
I love, love, love; music, psychology, movies, video games (old and new), stars, writing, blogging, singing, Irish step-dancing, rain, snow, winter, autumn, black & white photos, laughing, and being alive.
--------------------------------------------
"I started wondering whether we could actually change the world. I mean, of course we could-we could change our buying habits, elect socially conscious representatives and that sort of thing, but I honestly don't believe we will be solving the greater human conflict with our efforts. The problem is not a certain type of legislation or even a certain politician; the problem is the same that it has always been.
I am the problem."
Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz
"I know it hurts. But it's life, and it's real. And sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we got."
Sam, Garden State
"The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves. Until one day there are none."
"She paints her face to hide her face. Her eyes are deep water. It is not for Geisha to want. It is not for geisha to feel. Geisha is an artist of the floating world. She dances, she sings. She entertains you, whatever you want. The rest is shadows, the rest is secret."
Sayuri, Memoirs of A Geisha
"Please God, make me a stone."
River Tam, Serenity
"Because my brain is a wild jungle full of scary gibberish. "I'm writing a letter. I can't write a letter. Why can't I write a letter? I'm wearing a green dress. I wish I was wearing my blue dress. My blue dress is at the cleaners'. 'The Germans wore gray, you wore blue.' Casablanca. Casablanca's such a good movie. Casablanca. The White House. Bush. Why don't I drive a hybrid car? I should really drive a hybrid car. I should really take my bicycle to work. Bicycle, unicycle, unitard, hockey puck, rattlesnake monkey monkey underpants."
Lorelai Gilmore Girls
"What have you been reading, the gospel according to St. Bastard?"
Eddie Izzard
"So now, alone or not, you've got to walk ahead. Thing to remember is
if we're all alone, then we're all together in that, too."
Patricia, PS I Love You...
"My fingers ... do not move over this instrument in the masterly manner which I see so many women's do. They have not the same force or rapidity, and do not produce the same expression. But then I have always supposed it to be my own fault- because I would not take the trouble of practising."
Pride & Prejudice
--------------------------------------------------
This is the beauty of us;
simply complex as we are
You'd never think to ask what we really need.
Constant reminders of impending doom
The failure we're sure to encounter
And the fact we'll never be all we could have
You never say it just like that
not anymore
And that's the beauty of you
tying in such a deep meaning behind each
well-phrased correction, contradiction, and critique.
The point I wish you'd come to
is that there is no right answer anymore.
There is only the gray.
Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall...
Crop circles in the carpet...
Sinking.....feeling...
The truth is, we can't handle it.
We can only hold hands and pray to survive,
pray to live and make these days count.
When it comes down to it....would you just have a little faith in me?
Tapping. Fingertips.
Tapping.
Tap.
Tap.
Tap.
Eyelids flicker; impatient.
Consequences; for once she could do without them.
"It's not real."
It's not.
Not yet.
Some would think
a picture says a thousand words.
Not to her.
Pictures on the menu mean nothing
more than memories,
and...
is that rain? thunder tells the truth.
and brings reality,
crashing down with each stop, drop, and roll.
He, behind the counter,
waits; calmly; patiently.
there's a piece of her,
broken;
she's always in this stage
of in-between
she fits in a bit,
but not enough.
She's the piece the doesn't fit
in any puzzle.
not all the way.
not yet.
it's always been that way.
this stage of in-between and not yet
sitting, waiting, wishing, waiting
for it all to stop
for life to start
to have her body back
to fly again
to make something of herself
to make someone of herself
to cry like she means it
to not be a disappointment and failure
to be a girl worth someone's while
but for now it's not real.
she's not real.
not to them.
all she is is naked,
bruised,
and used.
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refuted
http://www.fictionpress.com/~aviendha
http://www.xanga.com/TriciaDillard
http://www.youtube.com/user/BeautyFromPain
I support "To Write Love On Her Arms".
I'm 22. A natural blonde who is missing her brunette days.
I'm the mother of the most beautiful, amazing little girl in the world; Lorelai Alexis. Seeing her smile and hearing her soft attempts at talking can make any day seem better.
I love stars.
I talk really fast, and really quietly.
It drives me crazy when people get away with awful things, but I love to break rules.
I'm horrible at telling jokes and stories, because I get sidetracked so easily.
I've always wanted to fly.
I like collecting books - faster than I can actually read them. I love editing videos. Anime is another of my many loves.
I want to learn Japanese, French, and a few other languages. I would love to visit to Italy, Greece, Japan, Wales, England, France, and many other countries.
I'm a loner, but I love the few close friends I have with all my heart.
I'm a Christian and so glad to be going to church again!
I work full-time at Farm Bureau Insurance as an office assistant - I absolutely LOVE my job. Even on days when people are infuriating, there are the rare few who make it all worth it.
I love, love, love; music, psychology, movies, video games (old and new), stars, writing, blogging, singing, Irish step-dancing, rain, snow, winter, autumn, black & white photos, laughing, and being alive.
--------------------------------------------
"I started wondering whether we could actually change the world. I mean, of course we could-we could change our buying habits, elect socially conscious representatives and that sort of thing, but I honestly don't believe we will be solving the greater human conflict with our efforts. The problem is not a certain type of legislation or even a certain politician; the problem is the same that it has always been.
I am the problem."
Donald Miller, Blue Like Jazz
"I know it hurts. But it's life, and it's real. And sometimes it fucking hurts, but it's life, and it's pretty much all we got."
Sam, Garden State
"The heart dies a slow death, shedding each hope like leaves. Until one day there are none."
"She paints her face to hide her face. Her eyes are deep water. It is not for Geisha to want. It is not for geisha to feel. Geisha is an artist of the floating world. She dances, she sings. She entertains you, whatever you want. The rest is shadows, the rest is secret."
Sayuri, Memoirs of A Geisha
"Please God, make me a stone."
River Tam, Serenity
"Because my brain is a wild jungle full of scary gibberish. "I'm writing a letter. I can't write a letter. Why can't I write a letter? I'm wearing a green dress. I wish I was wearing my blue dress. My blue dress is at the cleaners'. 'The Germans wore gray, you wore blue.' Casablanca. Casablanca's such a good movie. Casablanca. The White House. Bush. Why don't I drive a hybrid car? I should really drive a hybrid car. I should really take my bicycle to work. Bicycle, unicycle, unitard, hockey puck, rattlesnake monkey monkey underpants."
Lorelai Gilmore Girls
"What have you been reading, the gospel according to St. Bastard?"
Eddie Izzard
"So now, alone or not, you've got to walk ahead. Thing to remember is
if we're all alone, then we're all together in that, too."
Patricia, PS I Love You...
"My fingers ... do not move over this instrument in the masterly manner which I see so many women's do. They have not the same force or rapidity, and do not produce the same expression. But then I have always supposed it to be my own fault- because I would not take the trouble of practising."
Pride & Prejudice
--------------------------------------------------
This is the beauty of us;
simply complex as we are
You'd never think to ask what we really need.
Constant reminders of impending doom
The failure we're sure to encounter
And the fact we'll never be all we could have
You never say it just like that
not anymore
And that's the beauty of you
tying in such a deep meaning behind each
well-phrased correction, contradiction, and critique.
The point I wish you'd come to
is that there is no right answer anymore.
There is only the gray.
Where are we?
What the hell is going on?
The dust has only just begun to fall...
Crop circles in the carpet...
Sinking.....feeling...
The truth is, we can't handle it.
We can only hold hands and pray to survive,
pray to live and make these days count.
When it comes down to it....would you just have a little faith in me?
Tapping. Fingertips.
Tapping.
Tap.
Tap.
Tap.
Eyelids flicker; impatient.
Consequences; for once she could do without them.
"It's not real."
It's not.
Not yet.
Some would think
a picture says a thousand words.
Not to her.
Pictures on the menu mean nothing
more than memories,
and...
is that rain? thunder tells the truth.
and brings reality,
crashing down with each stop, drop, and roll.
He, behind the counter,
waits; calmly; patiently.
there's a piece of her,
broken;
she's always in this stage
of in-between
she fits in a bit,
but not enough.
She's the piece the doesn't fit
in any puzzle.
not all the way.
not yet.
it's always been that way.
this stage of in-between and not yet
sitting, waiting, wishing, waiting
for it all to stop
for life to start
to have her body back
to fly again
to make something of herself
to make someone of herself
to cry like she means it
to not be a disappointment and failure
to be a girl worth someone's while
but for now it's not real.
she's not real.
not to them.
all she is is naked,
bruised,
and used.
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